From Ken Wilber

Monday July 26th, 2021: 1512 Pe'ahi, Maui, Hawaii

And comes to rest that Godless search, tormented and tormenting…gone the madness of a life committed to uncare, and gone the tears and terror of the brutal days and endless nights where time alone would rule. And I—I rise to taste the dawn, and find that love alone will shine today. And the Shining says: to love it all, and love it madly, and always endlessly, and ever fiercely, to love without choice and thus enter the All, embracing the only and radiant Divine: now as Emptiness, now as Form, together and forever, the Godless search undone, and love alone will shine today.

Sex, Ecology, Spirituality , 1995, (p. 523)

Beautiful and Poignant

Monday July 26th, 2021: 1323 Pe'ahi, Maui, Hawai'i

Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep © 1932, Mary Elizabeth Frye

Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there; I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow, I am the sun on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry, I am not there; I did not die.

WAR

0206 Monday July 26th, 2021 Pe'ahi, Maui, Hawai'i

Almost all "normal" definitions of the word are similar: "a conflict carried on by force of arms, as between nations or between parties within a nation." Very few ever address the underlying separation between self and self as war, as the result of implanted introjects that every individual takes on as a result of negative "suggestions" that are shame-based and emotionally crippling. Paraphrasing Jung, "The war and conflict outside of ourselves is a direct projection of the war within." That war is between what one actually feels and wants, and what one believes one should or must do in order to appease the cultural demands (especially as channeled through the parents as icons acting in aegis for society.

I feel that I have been fighting my way out of the prison imposed in my childhood, having to learn every day something new and liberating about myself, giving myself new freedoms as deeper and deeper awarenesses grow, as I learn to love myself more and more in subtle and not-so-subtle ways. I am freeing myself by allowing myself more and more to be myself, to have myself as lovable, to have myself as valuable--and that all of the pain and suffering I have endured have taken me deeply into the Underworld so that I can make a triumphant Ascent from my Hero's Journey.